Help not welcome. Or Watch the Breaking of Time!

Hello reader, today I could talk about the stress of midterms, however I am just starting to recover from it so I will get to it some other time.
Now lets talk about a watch, my watch to be specific I have had this one watch since the summer of 2012, which is a long time for cheap watch that I pretty much had on me at all times. It lived though working at two camps, most of my undergrad which included working at the school in the summers, more races then I can remember (which is not that hard to do), it's been all over the the southeast with me, still it is just a watch and when it started to break I just taped it up because I didn't want to deal with a new watch and when I started having to use a rubber band because that piece right after the buckle broke, I really just thought it was because it wasn't to far gone. unfortunately during finals week my watch broke to a degree that I have decided to be unfixable and also unfortunately mt watch is a metaphor. (but I will let you think about it for a bit)
Now on to the meat which in this case is really based around one of the reasons I don't like to study with groups, sure their is the fact that I will be the most distracted and get no work done, however the other problem is that I have this stupid thought that if I go and study with people I must already know everything before even talking about it with people so that I can appear smart. Now the interesting thing is that there are two major driving forces at work here, and first up we have my low self esteem, which drives me believe that even though I was smart enough to get in to vet school that everyone here is about a million times smarter then me (it was so much easier when I could just assume that I would never get into vet school, Sigh), and at the same time my overly competitive side which tells me that I need to win vet school and be the smartest person here. (Okay so you might have noticed some conflict with these two ways of thinking but just wait for this one) This also keeps me from wanting to asking for help from anyone, (Just let me do it, I'll take care of it, No I am fine, I've got this... etc,) which is though, now understand that I will ask for help but only after I can't do something by myself, and only when it is my idea (also their are the people who I will ask for help from and those that I will not ask for help from). Unfortunately I can't really help you if you struggle with these same things, because I am very happy to study alone in my room where at least I can recover from a distraction. 
Back to the watch which is of coarse A Metaphor for myself, I have taped, glued, zip tied, leaned ageist the wall in the appearance of being whole, for what feels like so long (but to be fair only started in undergrad, and also to be fair I was doing such a good job of it). The really sad thing is that it only took 8 weeks of vet school classes on a island to bring it all crashing down, it is okay though I am rebuilding myself the wright way this time.
Anyway the morals of the story are, 1. vet school is hard but not just the classes, it is everything that is hard, and it is hard on your mind and body, 2. Buy a new watch before you start vet school.
Talk to you Next week, Thanks for reading.
P.S. Love you Mom and Dad thanks for all the support!