Monsters, Or MIDTERMS, or monsters

Hello Dear Readers midterms start on Friday,  so I will not have a post next week, and this weeks post will probable be a bit odd, and a bit harsh. First this weeks post is a day late and interestingly enough it is not because I forgot, or because something came up, it is because I had to change what I was writing about. I felt that I should not write angry, so I gave myself a night to cool down and think about this post.

I have always liked the Crypto's like Bigfoot, Loch ness, and Mothman. I have always enjoyed the ability for everyone to be right when it comes to potentially fake or real creatures since there are no wrong answers, unfortunately not all monsters are so easy to come up with answers for. I have struggled for years with a monster, a monster that I have never talk about, or wanted to talk about, or even wanted to acknowledge. Since I started school (1st Grade) I have struggled with spelling, grammar, and hand writing, when I was younger I learned to read by memorizing the shape of words, words! Now I did eventually learn to read properly, but my spelling was still a non-existent and my hand writing was extremely shaky. High school rolled around and by then I had figured out that I could write legible, however it took time and even though though the years I have gotten faster, it's still not a normal writing speed, I can write at a normal speed but it is not very pretty with a mix of cursive and print. Even today I still just struggle with spelling , yes I am far far better then I once was, it is still a struggle especially when I get stressed. The worst part is how hard I try, I try so very hard to write clearly and spell correctly, and most people are nice enough with me but I still see people judging me, I know that people think I am just being lazy, or that I am stupid, and it's just so much easier to let people think whatever they want to about me. Because those people don't understand how terrible it feels when you are writing something and  you are just stopped dead by having the word you are just about to write disappear from your mind, or worse you write it and realize that you misspelled it but can't figure out how to spell it correctly and your forced to change your wording. I like writing but I have avoided any type of writing in front of people for basically my whole life, I get extremely self conscious about it which only makes my writing and spelling worse. So I just want everyone to know that I am not stupid, and I am not that lazy, I just wanted people to know something about me and to get this off my chest. Also Bigfoot is a giant ground sloth, I will talk to you all again in two weeks. TTFN