Other stuff happened this week as well, like I got over whatever sickness is floating around the school, however that did lead to me having trouble falling asleep (because I was no longer drugged up at night) and the lack of sleep really effected my concentration in class which has lead to me having to study a bit more this week to keep up, but I am back in the sleeping grove and expect next week to go better.
Finale let me tell you all about Imposter syndrome (I know this is a long post but this is good info)
so like the name implies this is some mental thing where you can not internalize accomplishments, things like awards, grades, and praise (often attributing these things to luck). Also most people with Imposter syndrome have a very irrationally fear of letting people down, for the fear that if you don't over achieve and meet the high standards that you perceive people have. They will see you for the fraud that you are . I don't really know when I started feeling like I feel like it's gradual as your self doubt creeps in more and more, then one day you are always stressed about letting people down, but you also feel like you are not talented enough or smart enough so you procrastinate on everything and then you ether do well and attribute it to luck or you do poorly and now you've porven that your a imposter. ether way you lose and it can get very bad trust me I have been doing this for over a dacade, and I would still be doing it if not for SGU and the Proffesers here, who talked to us about imposter sysdrome. Thanks to that I have been able to put a name to that vocie of doubt, and starting to be happy with the work that I do. (to my Mom and Dad who I didnt tell about this before hand, Sorry the skype keept cutting in and out and there was a race on,) and to everyone Don't worry I am doing fine, I have tons of support.
Finle if you feel this why talk to someone even if it's your friends dog and understand three super important things, You did all that great stuff that you dont belive you did, you are not speacl no one is, and YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT YOU DON'T KNOW!
(Click here for more info on Imposter syndrome)
(Click here to take the Imposter syndrome test we all took) I scored a 76
see you next week, and in till then be happy I am.☺
I knew you struggled with accepting that you did great things and stressed about not living up to people's expectations. I didn't know it had a name, or probably just how bad it was... you are human and all humans mess up sometimes, but "Man! You have done some really impressive things in your lifetime!" People see you heart, that you care, and that's what makes them want to champion you. I love you and I'm glad SGU has helped you over this bump...cause I know there are great things ahead for you...
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