How I Got Away With Vet School, or The End Of This Book.

 Hello Dear Readers, 

I decided that today I would write a true close to my blog on how to survive island school turned emotional release platform, turned very rarely updated blog about my life. Unfortunately looking back though this grammatical nightmare there is probably very little someone starting vet school at SGU might find helpful, outside of the fact that it is indeed very hard, but most people don't become vets because it is an easy thing to do, no we do it because it is the ONLY thing we can do! 

Okay so allow me to try and set things right on the front of help advise, which I will do though a anecdote on my meany failures, I failed to become a rich Baseball player for the New York Yankees (the then highest payed team in the sport), I failed to care about school as much as I should have (hind sight and all), I failed to win any of the several Tennessee 4-H officer positions I ran for, I failed to hold on to my amazing friends from my high school days, I failed to prep for the ACT which I took 3 times I believe (thank goodness for super-scores), I spent a year at community collage, before spending a year at UTK, where I tanked my GPA and made a lot of D's in very important classes, so I spent another year at community collage retaking several classes I failed to ever get my associate's degree, I went to Austin Peay to finish undergrad, after failing biochem I failed to find any other job to aspire to other then Vet, I failed to hold onto my amazing friends from collage, I failed to get into any state vet schools that I applied for, after being accepted to St. Georges University's spring 2017 class I was on track to fail four classes, I deceled three classes and made a D in the fourth, I moved into the new fall 2017 class I failed to meet and get to know new people, I struggled my way though the rest of vet school but failed to really become a part of the class, along the way I failed to kill or save the Improv comedy club, by the time we got to choose clinical year schools my GPA had started to recover but it was to little to late and I went into my meeting telling them that I just wanted to go some place that had the best food animal program that I could (read whats the lest bad place I can end up), after moving to Stillwater Oklahoma I failed to keep in contact with my vet school family, I also failed to keep good communication with my family, I failed not to fall for my roommate/classmate/beautiful woman, I failed anesthesia, I failed myself more times then I count. But I never fail to keep pushing towards my goal, sometimes the only thing that kept me going was the fact that I hadn't been kicked out yet.

Today at about 12:30pm I was given the title of Doctor of Veterinary Medicine, along with all of my classmates including those from the spring 2017 term. the commencement was done online which still hurts because I honestly would have loved for the ceremony to have just been all us students seating in our old VSL class room hanging out and talking like old times before slowly meanding to our seats as all of are amazing professors made there way in to start hooding us before we all left to go hangout and party till we all had to go are separate ways... 

So if you have happened to stumble upon this blog take my advise, vet school is a very individual thing everyone has a different experience, so savor yours and share it with others, Laugh till you cry, Cry till you laugh, cram for a test, study for the rest, sleep in class but don't get caught, hangout with great people, learn, learn how to learn, live, make mistakes, make the grade, whatever grade gets you though, Re...lax..., panic! go see an improv show (it's only 5ec at the door), pray, pray, pray, work out, sleep in a hammock all day, eat whats bad for you. Close your eyes and take three deep breaths and then begin. Do all this and you too can Get Away with Vet School you can trust me on that I'm a doctor. TTFN

Burning Bright Or, Wave Goodbye

Hello Dear Readers,
The term is rapidly drawing to a close, with finals starting on Friday. This term has been kinda all over the place and I feel like it just started last week, it also feels like a year has gone by. The realty I started this dumb blog a year and a half ago, that is... just wired to think about, 1.5 years since I first stepped foot on to this little island nation. I have manged to learn more information then I would have thought possible, but now I get to experience another unique aspect of island vet school... saying goodbye to friends, yes in state schools you still have to say goodbye to upper term friends when they graduate, but hear there is something happy sad about knowing that you won't see someone around school anymore. We are all happy to see them going to clinical year but when they go they get scattered all over North America, which is kinda sad to think about, also the fact that no matter how much we all say we will get back together. Someday is a awful long way away and time pulls everyone in different direction, don't miss construe my words I believe that at some point I will get to hang out with those friends of mine that are leaving this at the end of this term. I will really miss seeing them around campus, talking to them about vet stuff, improv things, and car stuff (even if they didn't care), thanks for all the support. I can't wait to see how you all change the world my 6th term friends, I know you will even if you don't really want to, because that is the power of this crazy stupid way of going to school has, we are all stronger then we where and waving goodbye to good friends has never gotten any easier for me even though I have more then my fair share of experience at it. I am starting to get a bit of experience waving hello to old friends, and that gives me hope.
Goodbye till next term Dear Readers have a very merry Christmas, TTFN

 

 

The Tingler Or, My Tell Tale Heart.

Hello Dear Readers,
It's been longer then I would have liked it to have been, however I felt like I needed to focus on my schooling for midterms but now that is over with and I can finally talk (again) about my love of Fall, and Halloween time especially. You see it's got the best movies and music and it's just the right mix of spooky and fun, The Tingler is a perfect example of a "scary" campy 1959 Vincent Price movie that if you have watched, makes a perfect segue to what I really want to talk about (if you haven't seen it then now is probably the best time ever to go and watch it... No really go watch it and then you will know what this weeks post is about... the words will still be here waiting for when you get back...). Okay so now that you have seen The Tingler you know that I am talking about Fear this week, because last week I was terrified and if I am honest I have been terrified since starting vet school, it's not a constant fear thank God I would be dead by now (spoiler) just like the people in The Tingler who could not scream I would be have died of My fear.
You see My fear all starts with that little voice of doubt whispering though the wind that I am going to mess up, that no matter how long and hard I study, no matter how meany times I talk to people about better ways to learn, or how meany people come up to me and say that "you've got this" That in the end I will fail. (It's here that I feel based on previous responses to my posts that I know that I am not stupid and that I am more then likely Not destined to fail, and I remind myself about this fact almost every day) My fear is two fold, I want to be a good Vet (or if I do fail I want to be good at whatever I end up doing) and I am afraid that I won't be good, pretty straight forward right. The 2nd thing I am afraid of any kind of failure at all, and I know those are the same... maybe but for me they are different. So taking test has been necrotic to my Nerves, I used to be a mostly calm test taker who only got nervous about the big stuff, well now everything is big and the pressure is getting to me.
I mean anytime I am in a high pressure situation I get nervous which is not a bad thing on its own, I even get nervous when I am about to go racing after I have been away from it for any meaningful amount of time, but that is more of a excited man I hope I can still drive fast kind of nervous. however Tests which used to lead to a healthy amount of nerves, now only lead to Fear, 
I am afraid, and if it wasn't for God, friends and family, then I would probably would have no hope moving forward as happy and as confident as I am, I just want everyone to know that when you see me standing around before or after a test happy as can be, It's not that I am full of confidantes in my self, It's mostly Doubt, It's not at I am not scared, because I am Terrified. The Reason I can look so calm on the outside is because I know for a fact that no matter the twist and turns my life may take it's all going to be alright in the end...TTFN 

(P.S. Sorry that this post seems so scatted I just finished my last midterm) 

 

Term 3 Or The Hardest Way To Fall

Well Hello there, Dear Readers

It's been a while but I am Some how back and I yet again writing in this, honestly fairly depressing blog. You might have noticed that I decided to spruce up the place so it would better match what actually gets written here, that is to say trashy despair with the odd ray of hope and some random stuff thrown in. And since I am talking about me blog I might as well remind you all that I have decided to move to a biweekly posting schedule, this is to try and cut out some of the straight up garbage random post that I was making far to often last term, this was mostly do to a lack of time to devote to the blog every week, moving forward I will be trying to right a mildly high quality of content (grammar however will probably remain at it's current low standards).
             It is also so that I can open the floor to you my Dear Readers to write your own posts for this blog, since I know that at lest some of you will have read one of my post and thought I can do better, now is your chance without having to go though all the crap of starting a blog, writing a weekly/biweekly post, and posting it to social media so that everyone can judge you on how bad you are at writing. No all you would have to do Is email me your post in a Word Doc to GetAwayWithVetSchool@gmail.com, but don't get crazy about it if i don't have a guest post to post then there just won't be a post between my post's which again will be biweekly. (P.S. if you look at the side bar I added this email so you won't have to dig for this post later)

Okay so now that the house keeping is all out of the way we can get to the heart of this post, I did have a resit at the start of this term which I passed, however the fact that I had this scary scary test looming all summer didn't do wonders for my nerves. This whole week (This was the first week of classes and the resit was on Monday morning) has been a wired mix of relief, exhaustion, and getting stressed about Term 3, which is widely held as the worst term of vet school at SGU, manly do to it's poor schedule, and high concentration of "difficult" course's. Honestly though I am so Happy to be in term 3 since that means that I am not the total failure that I felt like this summer, I went so far as to try and avoid people that know me because I was afraid that they would ask how vet school was going, and while in my heart I know that they don't care what I do and actually just care about me, my brain is absolutely certain that if people knew how much I struggle with school, and with myself, that they would look down at me like a worm on the hot concrete, with petty and disgust in their eyes as they step over my rapidly drying carcass. Obviously this is just my internal conflict, since I don't think I will ever fill like I deserve any kind of praise, let alone peoples respect, but before you start thinking bla bla bla we have herd this same thing from you ever term, which you have I went back and checked the archives, although I have never stated it so plainly before (side note, Please don't go back and read old post, I promise that they are all worse then even I thought they where when I wrote them), very long story short (no really I cut about 500+ words from this post) that is how I was feeling this summer, It's not like I didn't do all kinds of fun things this summer, I raced, went to LBL, hung out with my family and animals, but I always had the stress of school right there in the back of my mind no matter how long I studied it was never enough to satisfy my own sense of un-accomplishment. That's okay though because I have Family and Friends, and Friends that are Family, and they all accept the facts of who I am, and what I am trying to do with my life, and while most of the people I know back home only know the strong, confident, compassionate, outgoing, well put together me, and nothing of the stressed and struggling me, I know that they would understand and empathize with me, Just like you do. Thanks If it wasn't for you all and the grace of God I don't think I would be capable of tackling what is shaping up to be my hardest Fall ever. Well I suppose I will talk to you again on the 10th of September, Till thin

 TTFN

Getting Though it All, Or Story Tellers, Or Finals Again.

Hello Dear Readers, I Have been writing this blog for over a year now, I obviously plan on keeping it up as long as I am here, vis-à-vis finals are coming up and as per my usual I am not sure how I am going to make it though them. I am not as bad off as I have been in the past, Pharm and anatomy lab are going to kill me, they are pretty much straight memorization and there is a lot there to remember plus this weekend was one of those where I try to do something like study but my brain says no lets wonder off and do something else and then by the time I lay down to sleep it snaps back and says "you didn't get enough done your going to fail so" I lay awake clear in the knowledge that I am a worthless idiot who has no right to be here, and the sane part of my mind is saying that the best thing to do now is to get some sleep and get up and get some work done, then by 2:30am I am finally able to fall asleep. I wish I was one of those people who could just sit down and study all day, oh while at lest vet school is getting better, not easier mind you just better what does that mean you ask, well I am getting used to the level of work and stress, which means that I am enjoying my time here a bit more it is not as strange and foreign as it was before. So hopefully I can make it though finals and move on to term 3, and as long as I can I think there might be some changes made to this blog, since the last couple of posts have been very short and frankly stupid. I can do better but apparently not weekly so since you dear Readers deserve the best I can muster I will probable make it into a Bi weekly post. Something else that I think would be interesting for this blog is adding your the Readers story's to it, I know that some of you probable have better things to talk about then I do. So we will see how finals works out and then I will figure out how that would work and go from there. Anyway I think this will be it for me this term, hopefully though the grace of god I will be back next term, till then...

 TTFN

Fight Or Flight, Or Thoughts of the Future

Hello Dear Readers,
I feel like I had several plans pertaining  to this weeks post, however I can't seem to remember any of them, Such is the nature of Midterms week.
As the title suggest Midterms is a week of Fight or Flight still studding trying to review info trying to learn the stuff that professors give days before the exam, it is a week of wake up study, take test, study, go to sleep and repeat it for the next 7 days. Some how I made it though this terms gantlet of stress, despair, triumph, depression, sleep depredation with only small mental wounds to show for it.
Enough about the worst weeks of vet school, let's talk about the future and not the terrifying one where we all have flying cars (shudder) just imagine a small fender bender ending with both party's plummeting 100ft to the ground, no I am talking about my future Lord willing I will graduate vet school and then what be a vet? Yes of course but what kind of vet, since vet pretty much can get you any number of jobs ranging from Lab work to wildlife conservation work part of vet school is figuring out what you want to do after vet school, now most people come in to vet school knowing exactly what they want to do with their degree, and I have a general idea of what I would like to accomplish. The thing for me is that in high school and undergrad despite my outward confidence I honestly figured that I would never get into vet school, and then last year I was fairly certain that I would fail out of vet school, it's only been this term that I have allowed myself to dream of the future and what it might hold. Be that Struggles, Joy, Tears, Love, Pain, Success, or a bit of all of those, the future is no longer shrouded in a fog of self doubt for me and no matter what happens it's looking pretty bright. TTFN