What To Write Or, There is a group for that.

Hello Dear Readers,
I don't think that in all my time at school, I have ever truly be afflicted with a writing block. But after the last two post being sub par, plus the skipped week, and now I still have nothing to write about. In some ways this is because I am trying very hard not to get kicked out of vet school, in other ways it is because every 5 seconds something studying, assignments, study buddy, class, lab, food, sleep, and the all consuming metric ton of groups that term 3 forces you to schedule times to meet with around an already bonkers schedule. Since the groups are all randomly assigned no one has the same lab times, which then means that Thursday mornings (which have been left open for the research group) are absurdly busy with running around trying to meet with groups, advisers, professors, other groups, then class starts at 1:30 so it's a very limited window that demands my attention. It's gotten to the point where I will turn my phone off so that I can study without getting immediately desecrated by the latest group trying to figure out a time to meet (Thursday at 9?) or figuring out what the next step in the group project is. Do not take this the wrong way I am in some of the best groups of people, groups where everyone is trying to pull there own wight and help anyone is struggling, which is also what I try to do in the rare instant that I might hold some small nugget of knowledge or understanding that has escaped one of my classmates, anyway hopefully I will figure out some great secret of the universe to share with you in two weeks TTFN my friends.

 

Cry Out Watch Out, Or Me in Mentor

Hello Dear Readers,
So I had no clue what I was going write about, then I realized that Today is World Suicide Prevention Day, I know not my usual happy post but it is a very impotent topic especially for a field with as high a stress rate as veterinarians. With a higher attempt rate then the general public all over the world, and when a veterinarian attempts Suicide they will probably be successful, since they are trained to kill and use that skill set often. So today I would like to speak out about this problem however I don't have any direct experience, or training SO if You are reading this and are considering Suicide Please visit these sources or call the numbers below...or your local emergency services... or friends or family...  
In the US.
https://suicidepreventionlifeline.org/ ,  Call 1-800-273-8255
In AU
https://www.lifeline.org.au/ Call 13 11 14 
In Austria 
http://www.telefonseelsorge.at/ Call 142
In Bangladesh
http://shuni.org/
In Belgium
https://www.zelfmoord1813.be/ Call 1813
In China
http://www.crisis.org.cn/ Call 800-810-1117 landline or 010-8295-1332 for cells
In Czech Republic
http://www.modralinka.cz/ Call 42 060 890 2410
In Denmark
https://www.livslinien.dk/ Call 70 201 201
In Greece
http://suicide-help.gr/ Call 1018
In Hong Kong
https://samaritans.org.hk/?lang=zh-hant  Call 2896 0000
In Ireland
https://www.samaritans.org/  Call 116 123
In Malaysia
https://www.befrienders.org.my/ Call 603-79568145
In Mauritius

www.befriendersmauritius.com Call 800 9393

In Netherlands
https://www.113.nl/ Call 0900-0113
In Singapore
https://www.sos.org.sg/ Call 1800-221-4444
In United Kingdom
https://www.samaritans.org/how-we-can-help-you/contact-us Call 116 123

Now I just want to say a couple of things to people who might be the recipients of a Cry For Help, firstly if you think it might be cry for help respond Immediately Stop whatever you are doing and Respond it could save a life, second If you think something might be a Cry For Help, no matter how slight the chance or if it's just a nagging thought in the back of your head Respond, do it then, don't wait you might save a life. I would rather let someone know that I care and look paranoid or stupid then to risk not acting when it counts. 
Okay I will leave the rest to the pros, Suffice it to say that if You feel like you can't contact anyone else (really they will be better at it) Email me! GetAwayWithVetSchool@gmail.com I will do my  best to help.

Wow we are far down the page now, but anyway I wanted to answer a question posed to me by my Mentor from Undergrad, She is literally the reason I am at SGU (since I didn't even know about it before), but my mentor asked how it felt to be a mentor myself, you see I recently received a message from a guy that I went to school with thanking me for helping him out when he started back (which means a whole heck of a lot to me). So to answer the question posed to me, It feels good...  and it feels scary at the same time, I don't know that I feel that I have any right to be a mentor I barley feel like I belong in vet school most days, however this is just going to push me to became a better student, and a better mentor to anyone that might decide that I am the kind of person they want to look to for answers, just know that I am still figuring out what I am  doing with my life every day, and that I am still learning every day, but most of all know that I am honored by the trust placed in me. Thanks, stay safe, don't be afraid to ask for help, and I will talk to You again in two weeks TTFN

   

Term 3 Or The Hardest Way To Fall

Well Hello there, Dear Readers

It's been a while but I am Some how back and I yet again writing in this, honestly fairly depressing blog. You might have noticed that I decided to spruce up the place so it would better match what actually gets written here, that is to say trashy despair with the odd ray of hope and some random stuff thrown in. And since I am talking about me blog I might as well remind you all that I have decided to move to a biweekly posting schedule, this is to try and cut out some of the straight up garbage random post that I was making far to often last term, this was mostly do to a lack of time to devote to the blog every week, moving forward I will be trying to right a mildly high quality of content (grammar however will probably remain at it's current low standards).
             It is also so that I can open the floor to you my Dear Readers to write your own posts for this blog, since I know that at lest some of you will have read one of my post and thought I can do better, now is your chance without having to go though all the crap of starting a blog, writing a weekly/biweekly post, and posting it to social media so that everyone can judge you on how bad you are at writing. No all you would have to do Is email me your post in a Word Doc to GetAwayWithVetSchool@gmail.com, but don't get crazy about it if i don't have a guest post to post then there just won't be a post between my post's which again will be biweekly. (P.S. if you look at the side bar I added this email so you won't have to dig for this post later)

Okay so now that the house keeping is all out of the way we can get to the heart of this post, I did have a resit at the start of this term which I passed, however the fact that I had this scary scary test looming all summer didn't do wonders for my nerves. This whole week (This was the first week of classes and the resit was on Monday morning) has been a wired mix of relief, exhaustion, and getting stressed about Term 3, which is widely held as the worst term of vet school at SGU, manly do to it's poor schedule, and high concentration of "difficult" course's. Honestly though I am so Happy to be in term 3 since that means that I am not the total failure that I felt like this summer, I went so far as to try and avoid people that know me because I was afraid that they would ask how vet school was going, and while in my heart I know that they don't care what I do and actually just care about me, my brain is absolutely certain that if people knew how much I struggle with school, and with myself, that they would look down at me like a worm on the hot concrete, with petty and disgust in their eyes as they step over my rapidly drying carcass. Obviously this is just my internal conflict, since I don't think I will ever fill like I deserve any kind of praise, let alone peoples respect, but before you start thinking bla bla bla we have herd this same thing from you ever term, which you have I went back and checked the archives, although I have never stated it so plainly before (side note, Please don't go back and read old post, I promise that they are all worse then even I thought they where when I wrote them), very long story short (no really I cut about 500+ words from this post) that is how I was feeling this summer, It's not like I didn't do all kinds of fun things this summer, I raced, went to LBL, hung out with my family and animals, but I always had the stress of school right there in the back of my mind no matter how long I studied it was never enough to satisfy my own sense of un-accomplishment. That's okay though because I have Family and Friends, and Friends that are Family, and they all accept the facts of who I am, and what I am trying to do with my life, and while most of the people I know back home only know the strong, confident, compassionate, outgoing, well put together me, and nothing of the stressed and struggling me, I know that they would understand and empathize with me, Just like you do. Thanks If it wasn't for you all and the grace of God I don't think I would be capable of tackling what is shaping up to be my hardest Fall ever. Well I suppose I will talk to you again on the 10th of September, Till thin

 TTFN

If I Go Crazy, Or My own Little Night Time

Hello Dear Readers, today will be a short one so let's just jump in.
This last week has been a extremely rough one for me, having two hard exams and a final today, between all of that sleeping and eating get all out of wack which leaves one feeling drained, tired, sleep deprived, ready for a beak where I don't have to study like a crazed mongoose fighting a cobra. Now let the record show that no one, and I mean no human ever in the history of the veterinarians has said that vet school would be easy, however what everyone fails to mention is why vet school is so hard, and while there is a answer to this question it like most vet work depends on the history. everyone struggles in vet school it doesn't matter if it has to do with classes, stress, personal, or some other problem. The impotent thing is that this happens to everyone at some point in vet school, it is how people deal with this moment of highest struggle that shows how great of a Vet you could be (or whatever other career path you choose), I have struggled with a lot in vet school but every time it happens I try to learn and better myself though the struggles.

I know that things get crazy, but that's okay since I am already a bit crazy. TTFN